November 30, 2012

i can't feel my face

if you all must know, i have awful teeth but i don't know why. i brush twice a day. i use mouth wash when my breath tastes bad and i floss when i remember. i NEVER drink soda and i've had the worst teeth my whole life. when i was 11 or 12 i got a root canal and my dad was pissed. "if you don't take better care of your damn teeth then when you get older you're not going to have any damn teeth!" dad usually was just mad at the end of every visit because of how much pain the dollar signs made. but whatever, i was a kid. well now, as a adult.....that same tooth that had the root infected. a gross, vigorous infection. i saw the x-ray and nearly died. all i saw was a huge black hole and started freaking out. it also doesn't help when the dentist freaks out and wonders why you're not in any pain. i love when a dentist says, "wow, this is very bad." she also said i had the beginning stages of some type of gum disease. seriously?! i thought i was doing a good job. what the hell! *pardon my french* i also had a couple cavities but wanted to take it a step at a time and not get overwhelmed like usual. so because the root canal failed the first time ( like 10 years ago ) another root canal would be pointless and just a waste of money. so the only option was for them to pull my tooth out. believe me, i had no idea was in store for me today but let me tell you, i am getting a cleaning every 6 months so this never happens to me ever again! i told stephen that after experiencing this pain...i will be more then capable of giving birth. well, i'm not so sure on that yet but we'll see if one day i'm in the delivery room begging for the dentist to come back and rip my teeth to shreds instead. you never know! but joking aside, my mom picked me up from work early and took me to my appointment. i brought my ipod to lessen the sounds of the drill and hopefully calm me down. i'm the kind of person i get really nervous and i start to feel like i have to go to the bathroom. like alot. it's not nice to talk about on here, but it happens. anyways, she did the cavities first which weren't so bad. but then, oh dear God, Father in Heaven, came the tooth pulling. just so you know, they shouldn't call it tooth pulling. they should call it tooth cracking, yanking and pushing. tools were literally jamming open my mouth while the dentist literally cracked/pulled my crown off. i thought i was going to die. i'm thinking, ok? we're done right? nope. after she popped off my crown, she began cracking away. it was horrifying. to feel my tooth being separated from the root was just traumatizing....and feeling my tooth chips and blood all in my mouth. disgusting. and scary! what should have been 15 minutes took HOURS. there were so many complications like my roots kept getting stuck to my bone, so they had to cut into my bone and keep giving me those awful numbing shots. the dentist was super frustrated and even had to take a break from me probably because i was being such a spaz. i was trying my best but i really wasn't prepared for this torture. i think the actual sound of the tooth coming apart is what scared me. it sounded like this awful grind, rip, crack, pop. (and in that order) and mind you, it was so hard to do because my bone was so strong...she had to cut my tooth into like 5 different pieces to pull. not only that but after she pulled the pieces out, smaller pieces of tooth got lost into this gaping hole which she had to claw and saw out. it was a disaster. it seemed like it lasted forever and after i was done...i felt like i got hit by a house. the left side of my face was huge and i was drooling. i felt pretty sexy actually. my lips were as big as angenlina joli and even had that famous dry cracks in them from being pried open for 3 hours. sexy. they gave me all this stuff to take home, instructions, ice packs and whatnot. what about a sticker? no sticker? what about a free teeth whitening? from enduring all that pain? the way i felt...i was expecting the ambulance to be waiting for me. anything! i guess not.whatever, i just wanted to get out of there. i couldn't talk. i couldn't feel my face and the side of my mouth was throbbing so bad...i have never felt anything more painful in my life. thank God for my wonderful husband and mom. my mom dropped me back at our apartment and stephen met me in the car park. he lifted me out of the car and was shocked to see how much pain i was in. probably shocked to see how i looked! to my surprise ( or not really, because i have an amazing husband ) he had the bed made perfectly and spa type music playing in the bedroom, ready for me to relax. isn't he amazing? the look of concern on his face for me was very cute. but it hurt to smile so i just wrote "i love you" and "thank you" "get me a smoothie!" on a piece of paper. he went out and got my meds and a smoothie. so i'm eating a smoothie with a spoon ( no sucking allowed ) and being taken care of by sadie and stephen. so sweet. i'm feeling a little bit better already. but i'm hoping i'll feel good enough to go to the KISS FM jingle ball tomorrow night. i'm going to rest up the most i can and see how i feel. side note: my little sister won tickets to this amazing concert with alot of big names/bands. we're super excited and blessed she picked us to go with her. anyways, i'm still in a lot of pain but can't sleep. so here is this crazy long blog post. so all in all:

dear stephen,
so blessed to have you. you are the best husband ever for being so sweet and taking the best care of me.
dear mommy,
thank you for insisting i don't drive home after my surgery. thank God! it's funny how i thought i'd be fine. NOT. you should always listen to mom. thank you for taking me and picking me up.
dear sadie,
thank you for being a smart enough dog to know i'm hurt and not jumping on me like crazy when i got home today. and also, thankful for just looking at me with your big brown eyes and making me smile. isn't it wierd how dogs know you're not feeling good? they're so much calmer!

dear oxycodone,
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. thank you. ??? i'm feeling happy!

p.s dear stephen's insurnace,
thank you for being good insurance so this didn't cost a gazillion dollars. much appreciated.  

November 27, 2012

brandon's smile

Brandon's Smile from Jason Shelton on Vimeo.

At 29 years old, Brandon has experienced a lot more than his timid, close-lipped smile lets on. Homeless for six years, Brandon felt the cold and shivered; he suffered the hard ground in place of a warm bed; he endured the shame of downward looks and harsh words from passersby. In short, Brandon is no stranger to difficulty.
But he’s also no stranger to hope.   
A year ago, Brandon found a home, a family, and a new life that surpassed anything he could have expected. But for all that he’s gained, the difficulties of his homelessness have not been completely eradicated.
Malnutrition and lack of hygiene during Brandon’s homeless years have ravaged his teeth, making eating and brushing excruciating tasks. He cannot enjoy a meal or laugh with a friend without the painful reminder of his rotting teeth. His smile continues to affect his entire life.
But he has hope.
Join us as we come together to rebuild Brandon’s teeth, alleviate years of pain and embarrassment, and reinstate his sense of self confidence.
Please help us give Brandon a reason to smile. 

November 25, 2012

Christmas decoration depression

i'm not in the Christmas spirit. and neither is stephen. we're pretty much grumps right now. our neighbors put up their Christmas tree already and so have a million other people on instagram and facebook. am i being pressured by the internet world to hurry up and get my Christmas on? maybe. ok, yes. i hate feeling pressured! i start over analyzing and then getting depressed that our apartment is too small and where we would we put a tree anyhow, and where would i put decorations? on and on and on. so this is pretty much a rant but hopefully after i post it i'll feel better. i'm going to try to get into the spirit, but our wallets also have to be wise judges. one of my friends got married around the same time as me ( so she has no decorations either ) and spent over $100 on Christmas stuff. ugh! not sure how much this decorating business is going to cost...but i guess i'm just a little uninspired right now. i could be freaking out though because this is our first real Christmas together as a married couple, so it's all on us! no more nice 4 bedroom house that mommy decorated so beautifully with decorations accumulated from the 90's! it's my turn! starting from scratch!? on a positive note though, my mother-in-law never decorated for Christmas so i guess if i don't go all out..stephen won't be having some childhood memory withdrawals or something. as much as this decorating and tree thing is getting me weirdly annoyed and anxious...these pictures cheer me up right away. maybe Christmas decorating this year won't be so bad after long as i have these adorable pictures to get me through the decoration depression.

November 23, 2012

" the 3D was SUPERB!"

 ever notice how elderly people have a lot of nice things to say? for example, if you open a door for a teenager they say "thanks." an adult? they say "thank you" but an elderly person? "oh, golly gee, thank you so much. what a sweetheart you are, that made my day". the end. ok, maybe not every elderly person says golly gee but in my mind they do! anyways, my point is hanging out with grandma is so fun and it was hilarious because we took her to see Wreck It Ralph and she was going on and on about how amazing the 3D was. it was really cute. i also love how elderly people are like kids. some people think its sad but i love it. it is hard to see my grandparents getting older but i love how my mom and i can take care of them now in return. God is so good in the way He calls us to build families and one of the fruits of that is...when you get older your children and grandchildren will take care of you! it's truly beautiful but because grandma and grandpa are getting older we are making an effort to spend as much time with them as possible. i don't like thinking about that day coming but for now, i'm enjoying the time God has allowed and i'm trying to soak in every ounce of spiritual encouragement or everyday wisdom of how they live life. my grandparents have been an amazingly heavy example on me my life and i pray that someday, when they pass, i will be like them. so we went to see this movie and we had a great time. grandma loved the movie, obviously. but it was fun just the four of us. ( me, gma, stephen and my sister ). it's fun to go to a movie date with just stephen and i but going with a few family members just makes me feel like a kid again. i love seeing movies at the theater period. but yea, we had fun and it makes me feel so good to give. grandma kept insisting on paying for the movie but i tricked her by telling her i was afraid they'd sell out of tickets so i ran ahead. genius, right? it made her so happy and i just love the feeling of giving, especially to my grandma who has given to my my whole life. grandma looked really cute with her 3D glasses and kept talking about how she hasn't seen a 3D movie since the 90's or something. she is right though, the 3D has changed a lot and the way they make movies now are pretty spectacular. it filled me with alot of joy to treat my family to a movie. i'm also glad everybody loved the movie, because that always sucks when you go to a movie and somebody doesn't like it. well, i better get going. i have some thanksgiving pictures to post later. for now though, i'm reading other blogs, relaxing on my day off and going to grandma's house again today for a BBQ. thanksgiving feast and then a BBQ feast the next day? only in my family.bye!

November 21, 2012

this year we are thankful for this furry thing...

happy thanksgiving everybody! have a safe holiday and you're not really thankful for all you have if your going to black friday shopping. ;)

November 17, 2012


thank you to the cutest girl in bloggerland  rylee blake for nominating me for the liebster award!i don't know what it is either, but i am participating nonetheless. hope liebster isn't a bad word or something in some random language. anyways, here are the rules:
>>>>>must list 11 things about yourself
>>>>>answer 11 questions nominee made for you
>>>>>choose 11 of your own favorite blogs to nominate
>>>>>create questions for them to answer (oh, and let them know they are nominated!)
11 things about me
1. Jesus Christ is my Savior and i can't fathom one single day without Him. He has blessed me unceasingly and i  try my best to glorify Him in everything that i do. i fail allot, but He loves me no matter what.
 2. i used to be really "scene" in high school. i thought i was really hot. and i was mean because i wanted to be cool. but in reality, i just had really weird hair. does "scene" even exist anymore?

3. i grew up doing martial arts as a kid (a.k.a karate). as an adult i enjoy kick boxing with my dad. it doesn't look like it, but i'm sure i could kick your butt. :)

4. i married my best friend. i'm continually reminded of how much God loves me in stephen's love for me. what a blessing he is to my life and my family. 
5.  my sister is almost 10 years younger then me. she's starting to pass me up in height now, which is not okay. it kind of freaks me out actually because to me, she's always been a baby!

6. i have a super freaky close relationship with my grandma. she's all over this blog if you look. she's my mentor, my hero and basically my spiritual encouragement. also, she's gorgeous and taught my mom and i well how to always look our best. passed down wisdom and beauty secrets? doesn't get any better.

questions from rylee:

1. if you could do anything and money was no matter, what would you do?
i would take my family on a nice vacation to Europe.
2. what is your favorite memory?
i have so many. as of now, my wedding day.

3. who has made the biggest impact on who you are today?
grandma dehoop. mommy. stephen. hands down.

4. if you could be any celebrity, who would you be and why?
none. their is so much darkness in the celeb world!

5. favorite holiday

6. favorite movie
any disney movies are my favorite

7. who is your biggest role model?
same as the question earlier

8. where is the best vacation location?
washington state!

9. what goals do you have for the next year?
more schooling done and hopefully a new apartment.

10. what were you like in high school?
weird, i feel like i secretly knew what the questions were! oh well. just read above i guess.

11. what makes you happy?
jesus, my family, my husband, my dog, blogging, disneyland, good music, cold days, sick days, weekends, church, children, boxing, quality time with those i love, movies, beach and christmas!

rain, 7/11 breakfast and sadie's first grooming

sadie's hair was getting pretty long and her tail was looking kind of long and asian. ( no offense to asian dogs ) but i thought she needed a hair cut and a bath since i'm not sure when her last bath was. i made an appointment for saturday morning at the groomers my parents have taken our dogs since i was little. the shop is literally right across the street. not like a block away, but literally right across the street. we walked over from our apartment and dropped her off like normal first time parents. sadie was looking around like what the heck as we were discussing what we wanted for her haircut. i don't think she disagreed but she sure looked a little nervous. we were nervous! but like good parents we tried to mask the fear. i could only picture her coming out like a shaved rat and all those cute poodle curls gone. but to my surprise, she ended up looking amazing and i'm jealous of them because they can get sadie's bows to stay...i can't. i guess i have to figure out something. anyways, after we dropped her off we got some breakfast at 7/11 because it's on the way. classy. i know. as much as this little walk was mundane, i did get some pictures i actually really like with stephen's iphone. i took a picture of the wreck it rakph add because we're actually seeing that movie later tonight with Tasmin and Grandma. we walk back home and i can't help but wonder how sadie is doing. what seems like several long hours (only about 2) we get the call that shes ready and we jam over there. we walk through the door and i see her pitiful and tragedy stricken face almost immediately. a girl was giving her treats because that's the only thing that can console her i guess. haha. it was so sad though. she was shaking and when she saw us she didn't whimper or bark or anything. she literally laid there shaking with this pitiful/pissed off look on her face. i squeal like a 5 year old on how cute she looks and stephen just stands there. typical dad. we walk home and on the way we got 2 compliments from random people on the street on how cute she looks. it's wierd, when i was single i would get the compliments. then when we were dating we both got the compliments...but now...only sadie does. and i'm ok with that. i guess it's preparing me for motherhood when people will only notice our adorable baby. i couldn't help but feel like a proud momma walking her back home in the cutest haircut and a little red bow. ( still jealous how they can keep it on her ). first things first, cuddle time on the couch. and second, pictures galore because i'm obsessed with stephen's iphone and our dog. she looks sooo stinkin' cute and i love how they cut her fur. love it! the end.

November 16, 2012

the time sadie went to work with daddy

on tuesday i got to go to work with daddy! mom packed all my stuff like my portable martha stewart dog bowl, my blanket and my doggy bags. man, i sure do love my martha stewart bowls especially since i like to scoot it around everywhere and spill kibble all over the floor. so dad took me to work and everybody loved me, like i thought they would. all of dad's co-workers pet me and said how cute i was. i was so cute, dads boss even let me attend the staff meeting! i was held and pet all day and even got to roam around the office by myself. when dad had to leave his office to download content or something, i had to stay behind but i wasn't scared. i watched him the whole time from the window. i took a nap under daddies desk, i smiled, let people love on me, typed some emails and yea...pretty much a good work day. but, dad's other boss said he couldn't bring me anymore even though everybody loved me. someone else brought their dog and i guess he peed everywhere so no more dogs. oh well, i least i got to go to work once!

November 15, 2012

dorky, fat puffer fish

you might be wondering what the heck is this post about but i'm about to tell you! but just a disclaimer, if you've never seen the "last friday night" video or not know who katy perry is at all....don't read because then i'll seem like a total psycho. so i grind my teeth at night, so bad that my front teeth literally look like a cheese grater from all the grinding. unfortunately ( or fortunately) i've never slept next to someone before so i never knew i grineded my teeth until i got married. go figure. so i find out i'm a teeth grinder so i got a mouth guard ( which looks like a retainer ) to wear at night to keep my teeth from grinding. the first night it was super uncomfortable and literally gagged from this crazy thing. anyways, when i first got it i tried to talk with it in my mouth.....and i sound literally just like katy perry's alter ego dorky girl from "last friday night". i usually don't think i'm very funny but honestly, it's hysterical when i do it and stephen and i will stay up in bed laughing our butts off for hours. "hey, this is my first time. are you ok with that?" it just sounds so funny i can't explain it but i definitely got into character and stephen played along. ok, creepy? maybe but we had so much fun with it just laughing like crazy. it felt like a sleepover with your best friend and you can't stop laughing. i love being married to my best friend. so last night i told him i felt like a fat, dorky puffer fish. i sometimes forget to put it in only because i hate how it feels even though i know it's good for me. here is a recap of last night:

stephen: don't forget to put in your night guard babe
me: ugh. (putting it in my mouth) i feel so sexy (in my "last friday night" voice, trying not to laugh)
stephen: oh boy
me: honey, i feel like a fat dorky puffer fish
stephen: you are crazy
me: but seriously, look how it makes me cheeks puff out!
stephen: trying not to laugh
me: look how sexy i am

and we both start laughing. i can't get over this mouth guard thing. as much as it's a pain in my side to wear this stupid thing ( not to mention how unsexy i feel when i wear it) i guess i just make a joke out of it to make myself feel better. so yea, i'm a cute preschool teacher by day and a fat dorky puffer fish by night. oh God, i'm sorry. it is super funny but sometimes stephen can't handle my crazy alter go of a dorky chic in a retainer and he tells me to take it out of my mouth when i talk because it starts to freak him out when i remain in character. haha! ugh. i better stop. but seriously, if you only knew. the first 6 months of marriage have been hilarious and wonderful. 

p.s looking at this picture of katy perry makes me laugh even harder. ugh, i love her! i love that she is sexy but not afraid to show her dorky side. katy perry, thank you for helping me embrace my dorky puffer fish face when i go to bed. i think my husband secretly likes it.

p.s.s i don't actually call stephen "steveypoo" but i thought it was funny. ok, goodbye!

November 13, 2012

the time sadie pooped at the spectrum

the other night stephen and i wanted to go to our favorite outdoor mall called the spectrum. we thought it would be great to bring sadie #1 since we're obsessed in love with her and #2 (no intended foreshadowing) the spectrum is well known for people bringing their dogs and hanging out. if you want to see a ton of cute dogs, go to the spectrum because only people with cute dogs go there. anyways, we took her out wee before we left and we got to the mall just fine. sadie was smiling we were all on our way when all of a sudden sadie starts slowing down. huh? what? i'm a few steps in front of stephen who was walking sadie. i look behind me and i see stephen's face turn into this horrified and "holy crap" face. i look down and see sadie in an arching squat. yes. sadie is pooping at the mall. and mind you, not like a little bit but she manages to trail 5 different small poops all around. stephen and i look at each other like "ughhhh". haha it was so mortifying and stephen tried to bolt but i couldn't bare leaving my own dogs crap behind for someone in heels carrying shopping bags to step in. luckily i had attached a portable dog bag things onto the leash and i just picked up her poop in a hurry hoping nobody would notice. stephen and i start cracking up and run away. luckily it was an area of the mall that was a lot less crowded! good Lord, thank God she didn't do it in an actual store! we would have been dead and maybe even banned from our favorite shopping center. oh boy. or oh girl i should say. sadie, sadie, sadie. what a funny little adventure you've turned out to be. this experience was definitely one of those "first time parent" moments. it  was funny in the end though.
after sadies accident we went about our night as a family and just hung out. we walked around, talked and got starbucks. i love how even though we are married, going out on just a walk to an outdoor mall is so fun and feels like the best date ever. especially adding sadie to the family, we feel like parents and it's fun getting to see each others "mommy and daddy" sides. it's been so fun around here lately. sadie loved sitting under a bench and watching the carousel. we brought a portable water bowl thing and we felt like super cool and prepared dog owners. go us! sadie also got to go in the baseball shop ( where shown above ) is stephen and i's favorite team in lights. that lamp cost like $50 and one of the lights was broken. anyways, i always loose my track of thought. i have ADD when i blog for some reason. oh yea, sadie loved old navy too. two little girls stopped us on the way to pet her. i think sadie likes the attention and stephen and i think it's cute when little kids come up to us. anyhow, that was fun but now we learned our lesson to make sure sadie goes poop before we go to the mall. oops!

sadie is a martha stewart fan

i got a sweater. not just any sweater but a martha stewart sweater. it is super cute and the color looks amazing on me. i also got new food bowls that match my personality better. they are also rubber on the buttom so they don't make noise when i eat. ( mom and dad don't like that very much ). mom said a regular colar on long walks could be bad for my neck so she got me a harness to wear. i didn't like it at first but because it's martha stewart, i decided to give it a try. did i mention, i really like martha stewart? who knew she loved pets so much!

November 12, 2012

today is..

i'm no stranger to being lazy believe me but the clothes i still need to put away, breakfast i still need to make, dishes to be clean, bed that needs making and a fridge that needs to be filled doesn't bother me in the least anymore. i do plan do get these things done some time today but right now, sadie and i are enjoying a day off together. stephen still had to go to work but we will be enjoying the time at home. i love having days off. they make me feel like a kid again for some reason. maybe because when you have a day off you feel relaxed and lazy and forget all obligations. thank God for days off. anyways, i should actually do something besides blog so i'll be going now. have a great veterans day.

oh! and today marks 6 months of being married to stephen! happy half-anniversary darling! love you.

November 11, 2012

sadie's blanket

we have had sadie belle for a whole week now. it was sadie jane because it seemed to roll off the tongue well but we changed her middle name to belle because it's not as "common" and i love disney princesses. but i wish i could say i thought of it, stephen did! it's fun seeing his daddy side come out and watching him interact with her in the way he does is so cute. anyways, it's embarrassing enough we love this little dog like our own child but in the process, we are sure learning the basics of being dog parents. we were blessed enough to get sadie for free from a family who also gave us her bowls, bed, leash, collar and other things. but i notice she was kind of cold in the car whenever we'd go anywhere so i thought i'd make her a blanket! my mom has made small blankets for her dogs and they are great for putting in their bed to warm up. dog blankets are also great for taking in the car because what my mom would do is but the blanket on her lap and then the dog so she doesn't get hair all over before she gets to her i think so! so i decided i wanted to make sadie her very own blanket, her bed looked so warn out and cold....i knew she would love it. my mom ( the dog expert ) and i went to Joann's to pick out some fabric and it was on sale. go us! anyways, picking out the fabric was fun and we went through all the isles trying to find the perfect colors and patterns. i ended up picking two patterns i thought looked great together which was a brown background with caged birds and for the second fabric i picked a light pink polka dot pattern. they went so well together and i didn't want to be like everybody who usually does a background with just a plain color for the back. so we went to my parents and made the blankets. it was so easy, no sewing involved. God knows if i'd ever learn how to sew...who knows how to sew anymore? so yea, that was fun and the minute i finished the last corner i swiped sadie up and practically strangled her in it. ( see 1st picture above ). went home to try it out and she loved it. thank God! because i'd be secretly hurt if she didn't like it. stephen put it in her bed and tucked her in. she curled up in it and fell right asleep. i've been forgetting to bring it into the car but it seems to just have grown into a part of her bed. so lately around the pardini household...i'm finally done with my class this semester and slowly getting my breath back again. life has been a blessing and we're enjoying the season so far. God is so good, all in all He is good. praising Him for getting through the week and a day off tomorrow.