November 30, 2010

He Proposed at Disney Land!

I can't believe I'm engaged as of yesterday! I will give you the full story and some more pictures as soon as I can ( but I wanted to just share it with you all now ). I am the happiest woman on the planet!!!! I can't stop looking at my ring or saying "fiance". I hope it doesn't pass too soon. ;)

November 27, 2010

Our First Date At Disney Land

Hopefully there will be more magic here soon..... ;)

November 17, 2010

The Male Response to Female Behavior

Stephen here. Since Danica spends so much time on this blog I figure I should write something for a change since this website is mine also.

As Danica has made perfectly clear, from the string of posts prior to this one, last week was probably one of the most disastrous weeks anybody could go through. With the combination of: a car accident, sheer disappointment from expectations, physical sickness and emotional wreckage, Danica pretty much endured it all last week. For any normal person it's very easy to just want to crawl under a rock and stay there for the rest of the week, or even longer until the pain officially goes away.

Danica did not do that however. She's battled through every obstacle and eventually made it through the week. It was hard for her to accept what happened at first but for the most part now she has come to terms with the situation and can move forward from it. What was my role during this whole ordeal? Well, I was the supportive boyfriend. I was there to comfort her and tell her that everything was going to be alright, which it was going to be. I provided encouragement and a shoulder to cry on as well. A jerk can tell her woman to stop crying and get over it, but a true man will always be there for his woman in times of trouble. I can't say that I've always been a source of encouragement for Danica. There were rough times throughout our relationship where I was a jerk to her and didn't give her the proper support she needed. Shame on me. I've learned from those times and realize that I do not want to be that kind of man ever again.

To all you men out there, treat your ladies right and shower her with love. A plant can only blossom if it's watered and has good soil, which is also like taking care of your woman. As for me, I'm going to continue loving Danica the best that I possibly can.

November 16, 2010

Looking Up

From my car accident, to money worries and any worry you can think of: Stephen loves taking me to "the top of the world" in Laguna Beach were you climb up this hidden hill and you can look out over all of Orange County and the's really something special. We went up there yesterday and did our couples devotional and just looked at the sunset and tried to relax and put everything behind us. I ended up smiling and thinking about how wonderful this man is; that he can comfort me when I think all else has failed. I was so upset ( and still am a little ) but I'm going to try and be content and forget about the past. We are going to put last week behind us and start fresh. Thank you God for those moments of comfort and stillness. Even when I walk through the shadows I can still find joy in my heart because of You. Things are looking up and I can't wait to continue this week on the right foot.

( added 5 minutes after original post )
I love how I talk to me mom after writing this post and find out that I literally can't drive anymore. I'm done. No more driving. This is my second accident and now I can't be on my parent's insurance. Well, isn't that a wonderful blow to the stomach.

1. I can't go to 1st service anymore by myself and then go teach Sunday school. ( So now I'll have to look to get fed else where )
2. I can't go to the store real fast, go to Stephen's house, pick up my sister from school if need be. ( a.k.a my independence )
3. I'm going to have to rely on other people for rides and to get me places on time. ( never fun )


November 14, 2010

Asian for a day

Stephen ( if you haven't read our About Us is from Hong Kong and he loves Chinese food ) suggested we have Dim sum after church and I was all for it because Dim sum is one of my favorite things to eat as well. So we invite the family after church and we all have a good time. After we eat we stop at this Hello Kitty store across the street and find a photo booth. I had never done one of these before and it was very fun! My sister Tasmin is in these too in case you were wondering. Hope you had a wonderful weekend!

Do you enjoy photo booths like this one?

November 13, 2010

good morning honey

Good morning honey. Just wanted to let you know that I'm about to go to bed and I'm still feeling really lovey dovey. I love you so much sweetheart. last night I was thinking about how good life is being with you. It warms my soul. I'm glad that we've made huge strides in our relationship over the last few months and are continuing to grow in one another. I'm just at loss for words to say how happy i am that I'm going to marry you and be with you the rest of my life. I hope you have a good start to the day tomorrow honey. I'll be thinking and dreaming about you. I love you darling.

November 10, 2010


He's not finished with me yet. God is doing something.

I just have to wait and see.

Slow like honey

Today has been very slow and somber unfortunately. I love the cold but when you wake up with a cold empty feeling it's not the loveliest thing you can wake up to. I'm still playing over and over again the accident in my head and every time I push the reels back my ears get hot and my stomach drops. I won't be able to make this up to my parents and I really don't think life will get any easier for them until I move out ( which will be for another 5 years I'm sure ). I clean the house before my mom gets home in hopes of making everyone's lives easier. ( I think everyone is in a better mood when the house isn't dirty ) But no one notices ( not that I really care ) and the house is dirty again in about a day and a half. But I really don't mind because without a job and nothing really of the house gives me something to do and gives me some sense of purpose in this house I guess.

I wrote Stephen an email this morning because my phone is off and he never got back to me, which makes me a little sad because he was online and didn't attempt to contact me at all. It was a nice email too. He usually calls me when he wakes up but apparently today he didn't. I don't mean to be poor me. I don't mean to do that all but I'm constantly listening to It Is Well With My Soul and trying desperately to not let Satan bring me down with sadness. This month just seems very gloomy so far and I just pray it gets better soon because I do think Stephen will propose this month. But if things keep going they way they are going...I doubt he will. I have no idea what I'm doing with my life or where it's going. I feel like right now is not a good time to say or do anything. But then again, every time something goes wrong I tell Stephen to wait. I can't do that again to him. I just can't.

November 9, 2010

I got into a car accident

Now even though this a blog post...I wanted to document it here and get it off my chest but I didn't want to post anything on facebook as to scare my family and friends, so yea.
If financial worries were a big deal a week ago...they definitely are now. I feel so bad for my dad sometimes. I wonder if he regrets having kids because of stuff like this. I'm going to try extra hard to just get a retail/temporary job so I can help relieve some stress maybe. I feel so sorry for my parents it's not even funny.
Well anyways, I'm still a bit traumatized and nervous about the money and the outcome but I know God has it under control...I'm hoping I can get on with my life and this will pass. Stephen has a special date for me tonight and I hope I can forget about yesterday for a little while and take in the surprise he has for me this evening. I guess he was planning on making this week special and boy, did I make it special! haha I'm surprised my parent's are even letting me go out but let me tell you what happened:
I was driving over to Stephen's house to pick him up so we could go get lunch. As I arrived at his house I was getting ready to park on the other side of the street that he lives on since his apartment was on that side. I made a right onto the neighborhood street that faces his house before making a U-turn and stopping at the stop sign across the street from his house. While pulling out onto the street that he lives on, ( I was already half way into the street in the U turn ) a car that came out of nowhere was flying down the street and sideswiped my car. After hitting my car, the other car swerved and crashed into a house that was across the street from where Stephen lives. If he was going the speed limit...his car obviously wouldn't have done that.
I was fine and my car just got damaged a little on the right side bumper, but the other driver of the car had to be loaded onto a stretcher and taken to the hospital by an ambulance, plus their car was totaled. ( You could imagine my panic and concern )The Fire department and Police to investigate the property damage caused and the accident and said that I was at fault for the accident since the driver had the right of way over me even though they were going twice the speed limit that was posted on the street. Anyways I'm still a little shocked because I'm not sure what's going to happen in terms of my driving privileges since my dad does not want me driving for the time being, maybe even long term.

I guess my dad is going to hire a lawyer to look into the case to see if they can find a loophole and see if the driver had done anything recklessly to cause the accident, but so far it doesn't look good as to I'm to blame for the accident.
I just hate how this is "my" fault when I was being careful and this idiot was going 60 on a 25-30 street and it's MY fault only because he technically had the right away. After I was finishing panicking in his apartment ( half crying/screaming, squealing, "my dad is going to shoot me." and "what am I going to do." Stephen decided I needed some food and or a distraction. After calming down for about thirty minutes and rubbing the black eyeliner down my cheeks we went across the street to get pizza. We then went to the Christian Bookstore in his area ( because being surrounded in a christian bookstore has always been comforting to me, since I was a kid ) Anyways, I buy a 30 most loved hymns CD. We get in the car and immediately put on " It is well with my soul".
Although I just got in a car wreck....I at least don't have the traumatic experiences of the person who wrote that hymn. What I've learned in my short twenty years of living is that life could always be worse. I'm still not sure what the outcome of this case will be but please pray it will be in my favor even though it was "technically" my fault. at least Please pray that everything goes according to His will and that my dad will have some compassion for me. This is all so crazy but no matter what: God is on my side and even though I haven't gotten along with my family that much recently I know they are on my side as well and they love me. So right now I am clinging to the Lord and this one hymn. I hope this will pass soon.

"For me, be it Christ, be it Christ hence to live:
If Jordan above me shall roll,
No pang shall be mine, for in death as in life,
Thou wilt whisper Thy peace to my soul.
It is well, with my soul."

P.S Stephen and agreed that we are going to start a tradition from now on: Every time a horrible tragedy falls upon us....we are going to go get pizza. :)

November 6, 2010

November 5, 2010

Something I Admire about my Boyfriend

Stephen Pardini, highlighting who happens to be the love of my life is a man of great integrity and sometimes caught in the world ( like who isn't sometimes? ) but all in all a godly man who has inspired me since the moment I saw him. We have been going through a season of financial uncertainty and a little bit of turmoil when it comes to goals, family,money and everything in between. It has been somewhat difficult with turned down interviews, not being able to get a new car like he wanted, not being able to get married most likely for another two years....but nothing stops him. Nothing stops him from being positive and hopeful in God's will for both of us. When I was single I always pictured marrying someone who was a strong believer and I saw a lot of young guys claiming to be strong Christians when they weren't at all. This saddened me and I thought either my standards are way too high or I am never going to find a man like that! God proved me wrong and everyday I'm thankful for the godly man I have that adores me and treats me like God intended. The way Stephen loves me and how we keep our relationship helps me greater understand the grace and love of God in my life. One of the things I love about Stephen is what a great prayer he is. He won't say that because he is humble or just embarrassed but he really is. Prayer was never my spiritual gift; I am always the last to pray with a crowd....he even prays at the table with my family...not me! haha

I remember when he called me the night of our official date ( probably about a couple hours later ) and we talked about how we were going to be careful and guide this new relationship in a Biblical way. Over the phone this guy just starts praying for us. Here I am. Just had the most wonderful date of my life. So concerned that I'll never have a bf. And here he is. Praying with me over the phone. I think at that moment I knew I was going to marry him and it strongly occurred to me as well on our second date because that's when he said I was the one! I've come to realize just how important prayer is and Stephen inspires me to do it better and more. Just the other day ( before we went to Debra's house ) I had a killer headache and the last thing I want is a painful headache when I go to dinner at her house for the first time. He stops me in the kitchen, puts his two hands across my head and prays for my headache. Amazing to me! Whenever he prays it lifts my soul and gives my joy that only Jesus and the two of us can experience together. I'm so blessed to have him. But, if you are single or casually dating it's probably not right for you to be praying with a person of the opposite sex because it is very don't get discouraged if the guy you like won't pray with you! But anyways, I just wanted to say how much I adore Stephen's spiritual gift of prayer. His prayer and hope for us has changed my life. We both know the importance of praying for your loved one and he has actually told me that he has seen a lot of change in my insecurities since he's been praying for them. What an awesome thing! For my boyfriend to be praying for my weaknesses makes me feel so loved I can't even explain it. Lately I have been so lovey dovey for him and I really believe I fall in love with him more everyday. I strongly suggest praying for your loved one because it will work wonders in your relationship and it will bring you closer together. God has been so good to us despite the financial worries....and I needed to write this for myself almost. I need to show to myself how things could be a lot worse and how counting my blessings is really worthwhile. Thank you Stephen for showing me how important and real prayer is, I love you.

November 4, 2010

better luck next time


But still looking up to Him for hope and discernment on what to do next. Everything domino's: If it's not one thing its another. I can't do this. Guide my steps Lord, give me hope.

November 3, 2010

black and white

I really love this photo and it brings back great memories and I wanted to share it with you: This is a photograph I took at one of my favorite places in Seattle back in 2008. I love the personality and drama that transforms into a black and white photo. It changes least for me. I could never be a professional photographer but taking photos back in the day really made me happy...I should start up again.

hello, lazy post

November 2, 2010

so far so good

Last night Stephen and I were invited to Debra's ( my mentor ) house for dinner. We had an amazing time and what a better way to start our mentoring with yummy food! Debra and her husband are very funny and great people who Stephen and I can look up to...they also have a thirteen year old girl who is super cute and outgoing. The Muniz's are what we call "prayer warriors" and informed us they would be praying for me to find a job and for Steve to get a better one.
And my praise report this month so far is: I have an interview setup at Studio C Salon in Irvine this Thursday at 9:15am. The power of prayer. I don't have my licensee yet so hopefully the owner won't boot me right away....I'm hoping they will like me and maybe, just maybe I'll have a job lined up for me once I pass State Board. God is so good and regardless of how this pans out right now I'm as happy as my soul could allow. One of the most wonderful thing about being a Christian is that we don't lose hope for long. No matter what is going on we always have a sense of peace that God is working and a sense of joy that He is going to make it awesome. I'm so thankful I have Debra and her family in my life....I am a firm believer in the power of prayer and Stephen and I could use a lot of them right now.

Now all I have to worry about is what to wear on Thursday!?

P.S I recently made a button for this blog and if you have one ( and I follow your blog ) I will post it! ( Just send me the link! )

November 1, 2010

Stephen bought a Webcam.....

Checking me out.

Old school horror film

Fight the power

Can't touch this

No idea

Going under

Yea, I have no idea what to say about these. All I know is I love that I can be silly with Stephen and we can enjoy each others company as best friends not just lovers. I'm very thankful for that. :)