October 31, 2010
October 28, 2010
But really think about that sisters! You either want to spread the kingdom of Christ or you do not love Him at all. I've learned that you can't really have a sincere fire burning love for Christ if your tongue does not match your heart. I thought that quote was a little much at first...but it's not. If you are a believer I encourage you to witness more in any way you can. Where ever your presence is..Jesus is there too because He is in you. Remember: the more people we help be led to Christ...the sooner He will come. And to all the non Christians who read my blog because you like me or the pretty pictures I post: He loves you too. And I really hope that if you see someone witnessing or trying to evangelize in a way that is not really God honoring or correct that God will tell you it's not right. Because there are some "Christians" who have the wrong idea and I pray that you will hear the real truth and don't judge "religion" as what should be a personal relationship with Christ.
"You are either doing good, or you are not good yourself. If thou knowest Christ, thou art as one that has found honey. Thou wilt call others to taste of it. Thou art like the lepers who found the food which the Syrians had cast away: thou wilt go to Samaria and tell the hungry crowd that thou hast found Jesus, and art anxious that they should find Him too. Be wise in your generation, and speak of Him in fitting ways and at fitting times, and so in every place proclaim the fact that Jesus is most precious to your soul.” -Charles H. Spurgeon
Stephen 4:42pm: You'll see
Me 4:45pm: Planning a picnic on the beach? ( sarcasm )
Stephen 4:55pm: Come outside
And this is what I got!
I am so thankful for the wonderful guy that I have who brings me flowers even when I'm a sarcastic brat to him sometimes. I don't deserve it...but in truth, none of us deserve anything, right?
We also went to Buca Di Peppo to celebrate our seven months a few days ago and I forgot to share that with you so I'm going to post it now. I didn't know restaurants did this but I thought it was so cool that they were offering to take a photo of each party as a post card/coupon. Very cool idea and I love this picture some waitress took of us.
P.S Just an idea but I'm thinking about starting posts called Text Memories. I've always hated technology and when we first started dating we only wrote letters and spoke on the phone. But in time; I've saved some super cute texts that Stephen has sent me. What do you guys think of posting them? Anyways, hope you are all doing well and enjoying this beautiful Fall season.
October 27, 2010
She used to be so cute! I remember playing parent trap with my cousin Alyssa when that movie came out. ( 1998 ) We would reenact the scene where they put the broken picture of their parents together and they realize they are long lost sisters ( and twins nonetheless)! Good memories but so sad the way she turned out....but I feel like watching that movie now. I wish we had on dvd but if I admit to my family I want to rent this I won't hear the end of it.
"The answer is possibly yes- at least sometimes.
Jesus, who is both God and man, is in Heaven praying for people on Earth ( Romans 8:38). So there's at least one human being who has died and gone to Heaven and is now praying for those on Earth. But it appears he may not be the only one praying. The martyrs, who died for their faith, are in Heaven praying for God's justice on the earth (Revelation 6:9-10). These prayers will affect Christians who are mistreated because of their faith in Jesus. ( Many are in prison around the world. )
The Bible doesn't specifically say whether the rest of the people in Heaven are praying about what's happening on Earth. But since prayer is simple talking to God, this suggests that we'll pray more in Heaven than we do now-not less."
October 26, 2010
October 20, 2010
The alter was dressed in white with candles and blank rocks and pebbles ready to be used for an outward display of a healing God. There was a lot of crying between the many women, the emotional worship music and just the atmosphere of being in God's creation. ( I've learned that crying seems to be the theme at most women's retreats. Wonder why, haha ) Debra came to pray with each of us individually and the room was filled with His spirit. I gave up Stephen, insecurity, jealousy, vanity all to the alter. Putting down my rocks was hard but I knew it was the right thing to do. I knew after this outward display I could no longer "pick up" these rocks and let them destroy my life. As I set my rocks down I looked up and noticed a tree flowing in the wind out of the chapel window. A wave of emotion came over me and I began to weep yet again. The God who made the earth, who has healed and led people through centuries....has healed and led me as well. How foolish I am for partnering with Satan and believing lies of my worth and Stephen's character. One last look at my rocks on the alter and I left. I walk away with other women still crying and praying behind me and I decided to go into the woods to have some quiet time. Which then turned into a photo shoot of praise ( which you'll see in the next post that I had promised. ) We also received a rock which says "Embrace Grace" on one side and "My Beloved" on the other. I keep it in my purse and I plan on leaving it there.
I feel like a new woman and I'm amazed at God's grace in my life as He continues to heal my chronic insecurity and my relationship with Stephen. I'm amazed at His beauty and how He is still molding me into the woman He wants me to be. I am so thankful. To feel the weight being taken off your shoulders by something so much bigger than you is a feeling and an experience that I can't find the right words for. I have learned that If I really want to seek healing I have to pour myself in His word daily, have fellowship with sisters as much as I can and pray daily. I am no longer going to hold Stephen or myself prisoner to my insecurity. I made a promise to myself that I would take care of this before I get engaged and I know I'm ready now. It would be scary to think of me being a fiance with chronic insecurity and lies flailing like arms of child having a fit. This retreat came at the perfect time and I am now living proof of how Jesus heals what seems like the impossible. Chronic insecurity was a bitter and detestable wave that was raging inside of me. It had such power over my mind and soul. I wasn't sure if Stephen would put up with my insane outbursts and imaginations much longer. I didn't know if I would get through it or if I could seek healing. But I have. Praise Jesus. His grace is sufficient to me. His power is made perfect in my weakness and boy, am I weak and proud of it.
October 17, 2010
Hope you all had a lovely weekend! I miss the camp but so glad to get home to my man and family. I was actually quite surprised to hear that Stephen had texted and called while I was up there. ( I didn't receive them until we drove down the mountain ). He was ecstatic to hear my voice and said he had been missing me so much. I think it's darling that he was missing me so much even though it was only three days. haha. So yea, soon to come!
October 15, 2010
October 14, 2010
"One of the Jewish religious leaders asked Jesus a trick question about marriage. Jesus answered, "When the dead rise, they will neither marry nor be given in marriage."( Matthew 22:30).
So Jesus' answer, recorded in the Bible, says that some things will be different on the New Earth. We will all be one big family, where marriage won't exist in the same way it does now. But the more important thing about marriage is the special love and friendship that a husband and wife share with each other. That's a picture of the wonderful love and friendship that Jesus and all of the people who know him will share in Heaven.
When Paul talks about marriage he calls it "a great mystery, but it is an illustration of the way Christ and the church are one." (Ephesians 5:32). Jesus has proven forever how much he loves us, more than any husband has ever loved his wife. After all, he chose to die on the cross for us. How could we not return that love?
Although Jesus said people won't get married in Heaven, he never said that married people would stop loving each other. Remember, in Heaven we will be the same people ( made better ), with memories of our lives on Earth and the things we enjoyed with others. So those who had great times together and faced great difficulties together in this life will naturally have close relationships in Heaven.
My wife, Nanci, is my very best friend. Couples with good marriages usually are best friends. There's no reason to believe they won't still be best friends in Heaven."
October 13, 2010
I'm not single anymore but in God's eyes I am. I used to read this all the time before I met Stephen and it has filled me with hope and joy each time. It's a great reminder that God has an amazing plan and we are only capable of true love if we are first truly in love with Him. If any of you are having boy issues right now...if any of you are unsure if your future husband is out there or if the guy you are dating is the one or not or you just simply need to hear how much God adores you....I pray this will touch your heart.
Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone; to have a deep soul relationship with another—to be loved thoroughly and exclusively.
But God to his child says…
No- not until you are satisfied, fulfilled and content with being loved by Me alone. With giving yourself totally and unreservedly to Me; with having an intensely personal and unique relationship with Me alone; discovering that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found, will you be capable of the perfect human relationship that I have planned for you.
You will never be united with another until you are united with me, exclusive of any other desires or longings.
I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow me to give you the most thrilling plan existing, beyond what you can imagine.
I want you to have the best.
Please allow me to bring it to you.
You just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest things; keep experiencing that satisfaction that I Am.
Keep listening and learning the things that I promise and mean.
Be patient—that’s all.
Don’t be anxious.
Don’t look at the things you think you want. You just keep looking up to Me, or you’ll miss what I want to show you.
And then, when you’re ready, I’ll surprise you with a Love more wonderful that any you could dream of.
You see, until you’re ready, and until the one I have for you is ready, (I am working even this moment to have both of you ready at the same time), until you are both exclusively satisfied with Me and the life I have prepared for you, you won’t be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with me—a perfect love.
And dear one, I do want you to have this most wonderful love.
I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with Me, and to enjoy materially and concretely the everlasting union of beauty, perfection, and love that I offer with Myself.
Know that I love you utterly:
I am God.
October 11, 2010
P.S wondering what pumpkin patches are really nice in Orange County....
October 9, 2010
Because of the graciousness at Voyagers Bible Church...I am now able to go on the Women's retreat this year at Verdugo Pines!! I didn't have the money and my scholarship of half ended up being paid for completely. I am basically going for free and I'm still in awe by this situation. I was so upset about all the money issues and boom....God blesses me with a free retreat!!! Isn't God amazing when He gives us gifts out of nowhere like that? He is always faithful and always good...I'm always in awe.
P.S I will upload some photos of my cousins from Ecuador later. :) Just remind me?
October 6, 2010
So I get home and poor Stephen listens to my rant ( like most of you are this very moment ) and comes over and puts a new battery in the car. He was out there for like 3 hours and I heard a few curse words fall along with some sweat and dirt. I chose not to criticize because when I get frustrated I don't have the purest speech either. haha. He got it fixed and my car is now alive!!! I have been slightly overwhelmed with money and what not...everything seems to domino because of it and everything effects it and you can't do one thing because you need the other thing and so and so forth and all you need is money. God has been very faithful to me and I always try to remember that He is in control and not everything comes easy to His children. I'm just trying to be patient with this season of financial struggle and pray that something will give in soon. Stephen is still trying to find something else and is not having much success. But, we will stay faithful to Christ and continue to keep him first and see what happens. I'm sorry this is so long but it's good for me to rant and write....it makes me feel better. Anyhow, I know some of you have been struggling with finding jobs and money and what not. How are you girls doing?
If there is one verse that has stuck with me through life; it has to be Romans 8:28. It speaks volumes and it never ceases to bring me hope.
"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
So yea, God is good and my life could be a lot worse...He works things out for good and always will because I will always be His girl. I would love for you to pray for Stephen and I as we embark on this crazy job/money hunt and I would love to pray for you as well! If you have a prayer request you would like to share with me please comment! And if it is private you can always email me. You can find my email in the Contacts button above. :) God Bless, girls.
October 5, 2010
I'm loving this rain so much I can't even handle it! Just another reminder of how much we miss Washington and our family up there. Stephen and I will hopefully visit in January but whatever God permits!
Just a quick update: I need to get money to send my paper work to State Board so I can take my exam sooner than later and then I can start working....please pray that Stephen can get a job that pays more and I can get a job in a salon that fits me. Everyone and they're mom is struggling with money and or finding jobs but I'm continuing to trust God that He has Stephen and I in His hands. Love you all and thinking of you!
October 2, 2010
My station decorated.
Carolyn and I.
Grandma and I.
Stephen and I.
My favorite auntie: Auntie Lisa and my cousin Samantha.
The person who inspired my hair dressing career: Mommy!!
And the person who paid for it! Daddy!
My sister Tasmin and I.
The last clock in!!!!! I had rose petals thrown at me as I walked down the aisle!
Officially finished with school and ready to celebrate with my man!