October 31, 2010

Happy Halloween!

Disney's (1929) The Skeleton Dance

October 28, 2010

Missionary or Impostor?

One of those seasons were nothing is necessarily going right but all is well with my soul all the same. There are three more days until November starts and I think I've lived October to the best of my abilities: I've gotten right with God and I'm working on being a better light wherever I go. People in our culture can read us a lot better now then they used to...time to start evangelizing better. I feel God calling me to do that more and I actually heard a very remarkable quote this afternoon by Charles H. Spurgeon: "Every Christian is a missionary or an impostor." Wow. Think about that for a second. I know I did! Very heavy and very eye opening. I was touched by God at a very young age and got saved around six or seven. I have basically been a Christian for a long time and I feel it's about time to start sharing the gospel. I don't believe I have the means or the personality to stand on the streets and hand out tracks like my Grandpa does ( at 80! ) but I do at least want to start spreading it in my own way. Through my love for children's ministry, in my outgoing personality and my profession: hair dressing.
But really think about that sisters! You either want to spread the kingdom of Christ or you do not love Him at all. I've learned that you can't really have a sincere fire burning love for Christ if your tongue does not match your heart. I thought that quote was a little much at first...but it's not. If you are a believer I encourage you to witness more in any way you can. Where ever your presence is..Jesus is there too because He is in you. Remember: the more people we help be led to Christ...the sooner He will come. And to all the non Christians who read my blog because you like me or the pretty pictures I post: He loves you too. And I really hope that if you see someone witnessing or trying to evangelize in a way that is not really God honoring or correct that God will tell you it's not right. Because there are some "Christians" who have the wrong idea and I pray that you will hear the real truth and don't judge "religion" as what should be a personal relationship with Christ.

"You are either doing good, or you are not good yourself. If thou knowest Christ, thou art as one that has found honey. Thou wilt call others to taste of it. Thou art like the lepers who found the food which the Syrians had cast away: thou wilt go to Samaria and tell the hungry crowd that thou hast found Jesus, and art anxious that they should find Him too. Be wise in your generation, and speak of Him in fitting ways and at fitting times, and so in every place proclaim the fact that Jesus is most precious to your soul.” -Charles H. Spurgeon
(March 1873)

Text and Chrysanthemums

Me 4:42pm: What's taking so long?
Stephen 4:42pm: You'll see
Me 4:45pm: Planning a picnic on the beach? ( sarcasm )
Stephen 4:55pm: Come outside

And this is what I got!

I am so thankful for the wonderful guy that I have who brings me flowers even when I'm a sarcastic brat to him sometimes. I don't deserve it...but in truth, none of us deserve anything, right?

We also went to Buca Di Peppo to celebrate our seven months a few days ago and I forgot to share that with you so I'm going to post it now. I didn't know restaurants did this but I thought it was so cool that they were offering to take a photo of each party as a post card/coupon. Very cool idea and I love this picture some waitress took of us.

P.S Just an idea but I'm thinking about starting posts called Text Memories. I've always hated technology and when we first started dating we only wrote letters and spoke on the phone. But in time; I've saved some super cute texts that Stephen has sent me. What do you guys think of posting them? Anyways, hope you are all doing well and enjoying this beautiful Fall season.

October 27, 2010

pointless post

Sorry for the pointless post but I thought this picture of Lindsay Lohan was adorable.

She used to be so cute! I remember playing parent trap with my cousin Alyssa when that movie came out. ( 1998 ) We would reenact the scene where they put the broken picture of their parents together and they realize they are long lost sisters ( and twins nonetheless)! Good memories but so sad the way she turned out....but I feel like watching that movie now. I wish we had on dvd but if I admit to my family I want to rent this I won't hear the end of it.

Are people in Heaven praying for people on earth?

"The answer is possibly yes- at least sometimes.
Jesus, who is both God and man, is in Heaven praying for people on Earth ( Romans 8:38). So there's at least one human being who has died and gone to Heaven and is now praying for those on Earth. But it appears he may not be the only one praying. The martyrs, who died for their faith, are in Heaven praying for God's justice on the earth (Revelation 6:9-10). These prayers will affect Christians who are mistreated because of their faith in Jesus. ( Many are in prison around the world. )
The Bible doesn't specifically say whether the rest of the people in Heaven are praying about what's happening on Earth. But since prayer is simple talking to God, this suggests that we'll pray more in Heaven than we do now-not less."

October 26, 2010


I'm trying so hard to be a light and I am failing miserably. I feel slightly disconnected and I hate it. I don't like being an adult because when I was a kid I never knew of any problems that surfaced. I would rather be an innocent child not knowing of the adult problems in this world. But I am an adult and it is time to take care of my family and help like I'm supposed to. Lord, help me be a light in my household. Help me change things. Please break one of them and make them understand that they need You. That You are the only person who can make anything better. I think they know it already in their hearts but they won't admit it. Help me.

a day at the park

i feel a surprise coming on soon!

I have been dying to go to Disney Land for a long time now and I'm pretty sure I have been hinting at Stephen to take me since...about the first time we hung out together. ha ha. Anytime I see a build board, a commercial or anything that reminds me of anything Disney my heart sinks and I'm filled with longing to go to my favorite place on earth with my favorite person on this earth: Stephen. I don't remember how it came up but last night I said I wish I could go to Disney Land before Fall or Winter ( because I love the Fall/Winter decorations with a passion ) Stephen just smiled and said, "soon, honey, soon. " I guess he has been planning this under his breath but I never give him any Surprise credits because he's blown the only one he's given me. haha. But now that I know I might be going soon I can't shut up about it. Wonderful. :)

October 25, 2010

October 20, 2010

Hitting a Milestone

I would love to share with you about the things that changed me last weekend at Verdugo Pines and a little bit about my personal weaknesses. For the past couple months I have seen my insecurity sky rocket and I have seen myself let Satan control my imagination and my self talk where Jesus certainly wasn't. I thought being insecure was normal but when I saw it escalate to the point where I wasn't trusting Stephen for no apparent reason, giving myself excuses as to why he doesn't love me the way I am I knew I had to do something about it. I even pushed and pushed and pushed and had no clue why I was doing it or how to stop. And I knew these things weren't from God. God makes me feel good and the things I was feeling...did not make me feel good. I spent a lot of time in prayer and both of us terminated anything in our midst that might shake me: Old emails, phone numbers of old crushes, facebook pictures, not watching certain movies. This has definitely helped my insecurity and my relationship with Stephen and we haven't had an argument regarding any of these things for awhile. It was scary to me how bad I let my insecurity get. I was in need of desperate healing! God spoke to me at Verdugo Pines, "child, do you want to be made whole?" And I replied with, "Yes, Father." Although my insecurities were improving before the retreat I had not spoken to anyone about them and God gave me a perfect opportunity. My now mentor Debra Muniz was leading a talk/workshop called "In a room with Grace". She talked about grace and shared with us her testimony and had us write down the things that snag our hearts on rocks. We could also write on these rocks things or people that we wanted to give to the Lord.

The alter was dressed in white with candles and blank rocks and pebbles ready to be used for an outward display of a healing God. There was a lot of crying between the many women, the emotional worship music and just the atmosphere of being in God's creation. ( I've learned that crying seems to be the theme at most women's retreats. Wonder why, haha ) Debra came to pray with each of us individually and the room was filled with His spirit. I gave up Stephen, insecurity, jealousy, vanity all to the alter. Putting down my rocks was hard but I knew it was the right thing to do. I knew after this outward display I could no longer "pick up" these rocks and let them destroy my life. As I set my rocks down I looked up and noticed a tree flowing in the wind out of the chapel window. A wave of emotion came over me and I began to weep yet again. The God who made the earth, who has healed and led people through centuries....has healed and led me as well. How foolish I am for partnering with Satan and believing lies of my worth and Stephen's character. One last look at my rocks on the alter and I left. I walk away with other women still crying and praying behind me and I decided to go into the woods to have some quiet time. Which then turned into a photo shoot of praise ( which you'll see in the next post that I had promised. ) We also received a rock which says "Embrace Grace" on one side and "My Beloved" on the other. I keep it in my purse and I plan on leaving it there.
I feel like a new woman and I'm amazed at God's grace in my life as He continues to heal my chronic insecurity and my relationship with Stephen. I'm amazed at His beauty and how He is still molding me into the woman He wants me to be. I am so thankful. To feel the weight being taken off your shoulders by something so much bigger than you is a feeling and an experience that I can't find the right words for. I have learned that If I really want to seek healing I have to pour myself in His word daily, have fellowship with sisters as much as I can and pray daily. I am no longer going to hold Stephen or myself prisoner to my insecurity. I made a promise to myself that I would take care of this before I get engaged and I know I'm ready now. It would be scary to think of me being a fiance with chronic insecurity and lies flailing like arms of child having a fit. This retreat came at the perfect time and I am now living proof of how Jesus heals what seems like the impossible. Chronic insecurity was a bitter and detestable wave that was raging inside of me. It had such power over my mind and soul. I wasn't sure if Stephen would put up with my insane outbursts and imaginations much longer. I didn't know if I would get through it or if I could seek healing. But I have. Praise Jesus. His grace is sufficient to me. His power is made perfect in my weakness and boy, am I weak and proud of it.

October 17, 2010

Back From Bible Camp!

Here are a few of my favorite photographs I took out in the woods of Verdugo Pines this weekend. I will write about my experience and all that God did through me at this trip and I will make a separate post with just pictures.
Hope you all had a lovely weekend! I miss the camp but so glad to get home to my man and family. I was actually quite surprised to hear that Stephen had texted and called while I was up there. ( I didn't receive them until we drove down the mountain ). He was ecstatic to hear my voice and said he had been missing me so much. I think it's darling that he was missing me so much even though it was only three days. haha. So yea, soon to come!

October 15, 2010

packed and ready to go!

Cute white beret and matching black and white scarf Stephen picked out for me...I got my bag packed, my sleeping bag and pillow...ready to go! I'm so excited for this weekend in Verdugo Pines and can't wait to see what God is going to teach me on this trip. It's going to be a long drive so I'm praying I won't be bored...I don't want to bring my Ipod because that seems rude. haha. I will be back on Sunday ( when I don't know ) but you can look forward to some gorgeous pictures! Please pray for me! Au revoir!

October 14, 2010

Can people get married in Heaven?

Stephen and I just got this book called "Heaven For Kids"...and it's so funny yet very, very helpful and answers some questions that most adults probably don't even know. I want to share one with you and will probably share more because I'm sure you would like to know as well.

Will people get married in Heaven?

"One of the Jewish religious leaders asked Jesus a trick question about marriage. Jesus answered, "When the dead rise, they will neither marry nor be given in marriage."( Matthew 22:30).
So Jesus' answer, recorded in the Bible, says that some things will be different on the New Earth. We will all be one big family, where marriage won't exist in the same way it does now. But the more important thing about marriage is the special love and friendship that a husband and wife share with each other. That's a picture of the wonderful love and friendship that Jesus and all of the people who know him will share in Heaven.
When Paul talks about marriage he calls it "a great mystery, but it is an illustration of the way Christ and the church are one." (Ephesians 5:32). Jesus has proven forever how much he loves us, more than any husband has ever loved his wife. After all, he chose to die on the cross for us. How could we not return that love?
Although Jesus said people won't get married in Heaven, he never said that married people would stop loving each other. Remember, in Heaven we will be the same people ( made better ), with memories of our lives on Earth and the things we enjoyed with others. So those who had great times together and faced great difficulties together in this life will naturally have close relationships in Heaven.
My wife, Nanci, is my very best friend. Couples with good marriages usually are best friends. There's no reason to believe they won't still be best friends in Heaven."

October 13, 2010

to all the single ladies

I'm not single anymore but in God's eyes I am. I used to read this all the time before I met Stephen and it has filled me with hope and joy each time. It's a great reminder that God has an amazing plan and we are only capable of true love if we are first truly in love with Him. If any of you are having boy issues right now...if any of you are unsure if your future husband is out there or if the guy you are dating is the one or not or you just simply need to hear how much God adores you....I pray this will touch your heart.

Be Satisfied

Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone; to have a deep soul relationship with another—to be loved thoroughly and exclusively.

But God to his child says…

No- not until you are satisfied, fulfilled and content with being loved by Me alone. With giving yourself totally and unreservedly to Me; with having an intensely personal and unique relationship with Me alone; discovering that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found, will you be capable of the perfect human relationship that I have planned for you.

You will never be united with another until you are united with me, exclusive of any other desires or longings.

I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow me to give you the most thrilling plan existing, beyond what you can imagine.

I want you to have the best.

Please allow me to bring it to you.

You just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest things; keep experiencing that satisfaction that I Am.

Keep listening and learning the things that I promise and mean.
Be patient—that’s all.

Don’t be anxious.

Don’t worry.

Don’t look at the things you think you want. You just keep looking up to Me, or you’ll miss what I want to show you.

And then, when you’re ready, I’ll surprise you with a Love more wonderful that any you could dream of.

You see, until you’re ready, and until the one I have for you is ready, (I am working even this moment to have both of you ready at the same time), until you are both exclusively satisfied with Me and the life I have prepared for you, you won’t be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with me—a perfect love.

And dear one, I do want you to have this most wonderful love.

I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with Me, and to enjoy materially and concretely the everlasting union of beauty, perfection, and love that I offer with Myself.

Know that I love you utterly:

I am God.

Pumpkin Patch 2010

at Irvine Valley College October 12, 2010.
Stephen is very excited for his first pumpkin patch!
Gorgeous pumpkins!
Stephen thinks he's cool because he towers over me...
Mr. and Mrs. Pumpkin
Trying to take a nice photo...as I'm rolling off the pumpkins...thanks for capturing that Mom. haha
Stephen way too excited for his first pumpkin patch.

Punching bag?
Stephen the animal whisperer.
Barnyard lovers.
My favorite picture all day.
Finally...a decent picture on the heap of pumpkins.
Stephen being his silly self and tantalizing me with spiders.
Haystack....as you can see.
My wonderful man...what an awesome day. :)

October 11, 2010

Update: Career Counselor and Pumpkin Patch

Today Stephen is traveling back to Biola to speak with a career counselor to get some insight on what to do next. He realizes that if we want to get married when we want he has to find a job that he doesn't necessarily want. I appreciate him putting his dream on hold and trying to find something that will make more money for the time being. I'm already very close to my dream and I feel bad that Steve has to put law enforcement on hold, but what can yea do? God made it very clear that it isn't the right time for him to pursue law enforcement...but I really believe once he is older ( he's only 23 ) that opportunity will be better for him. And after he gets back we have plans to go to a pumpkin patch! I've yet to stick my hand in "pumpkin guts" this Fall and I plan on it tonight!!! The only trouble is....when you go to a pumpkin patch it's supposed to be chilly!! And of course in Southern California in Fall it's a wonderful 80 degrees. Joy. :/

P.S wondering what pumpkin patches are really nice in Orange County....

October 9, 2010

Praise Report

( Stephen and I at the party tonight in honor of my cousin's visiting from Ecuador)

I am happy to share with you my very first Praise Report on this blog! (It's still amazing to me how much my blog has changed. I was all about magical fiction, dreaming of old houses, tea parties in forests and what not. I'm still the same dreamer and I'm still the same person but I took a spiritual turn and yes, I lost some followers due to my constant talk about Jesus but it was worth it. People change and therefore my blog changed....I've learned that I can be just as dreamy and creative but still be the godly woman God has called me to be! I never knew why I wasn't open about my faith on my blog before; but I am now. ) I think that was the longest ( ) I've ever written in my life. Anyways, back to my Praise Report!

Because of the graciousness at Voyagers Bible Church...I am now able to go on the Women's retreat this year at Verdugo Pines!! I didn't have the money and my scholarship of half ended up being paid for completely. I am basically going for free and I'm still in awe by this situation. I was so upset about all the money issues and boom....God blesses me with a free retreat!!! Isn't God amazing when He gives us gifts out of nowhere like that? He is always faithful and always good...I'm always in awe.

P.S I will upload some photos of my cousins from Ecuador later. :) Just remind me?

October 6, 2010

I'm a wreck and I need a job, can I get an amen?

So I had my whole day planned out to a tee. ( God just loves when we do that, doesn't He? )I plan on visiting my friend Carolyn at school and hoping to knock out three birds with one stone: 1. Visit Carolyn. 2. Talk to an old teacher about my resume. and 3. Sell my parking pass to Tiffany. I wanted to surprise Care so I made an appointment with her for a manicure and I had packed some snacks in a cute bag with a drink to go with it. I arrive early so I decided to kill some time and go to the beauty supply down the street. My aunt had given me a gift card for Cosmo Prof ( a beauty supply that only hair dressers can go to ) I walk in and I'm basically told because I don't have my license yet I can't purchase anything even though I have a gift card. I told the girl I am a hair dresser and although I don't have a license yet I just graduated from beauty school so could she make an exception? She says no because they have a student account and a licensed professional account...apparently I qualify for neither since I just graduated so technically I'm not a student anymore. Tell me about it. So I'm mad about that and I walk to my car in a huff and put the key in the ignition and nothing! My car is 100% dead...or like Miracle Max would say, "mostly dead." I call AAA and of course the lady on the phone is talking to me like I'm 5 because I'm sure my voice over the phone takes off about 10 years. Although nice, my day was not going as planned and I'm annoyed as heck by this lady. You know when you are so annoyed and overwhelmed by life the smallest things send you threw the roof? Yea, so AAA comes in about 15 minutes ( seriously, praise Jesus! ) and jump starts my car; tells me I have to go straight home because if I turn off the car again it won't turn back on. I drive home crying because my whole day was wrecked...didn't get to surprise Care, couldn't buy anything from the beauty supply and now my car needs a new battery when it costs 70 bucks! I wanted to go to the Women's retreat this week ( 80 bucks ) and I have to send in my State Board paper work ( 150 bucks ). I'm a wreck and I need a job, can I get an amen?
So I get home and poor Stephen listens to my rant ( like most of you are this very moment ) and comes over and puts a new battery in the car. He was out there for like 3 hours and I heard a few curse words fall along with some sweat and dirt. I chose not to criticize because when I get frustrated I don't have the purest speech either. haha. He got it fixed and my car is now alive!!! I have been slightly overwhelmed with money and what not...everything seems to domino because of it and everything effects it and you can't do one thing because you need the other thing and so and so forth and all you need is money. God has been very faithful to me and I always try to remember that He is in control and not everything comes easy to His children. I'm just trying to be patient with this season of financial struggle and pray that something will give in soon. Stephen is still trying to find something else and is not having much success. But, we will stay faithful to Christ and continue to keep him first and see what happens. I'm sorry this is so long but it's good for me to rant and write....it makes me feel better. Anyhow, I know some of you have been struggling with finding jobs and money and what not. How are you girls doing?

If there is one verse that has stuck with me through life; it has to be Romans 8:28. It speaks volumes and it never ceases to bring me hope.

Romans 8:28
"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

So yea, God is good and my life could be a lot worse...He works things out for good and always will because I will always be His girl. I would love for you to pray for Stephen and I as we embark on this crazy job/money hunt and I would love to pray for you as well! If you have a prayer request you would like to share with me please comment! And if it is private you can always email me. You can find my email in the Contacts button above. :) God Bless, girls.

October 5, 2010

picture phone

Stephen and I on a rainy day adventure to downtown where we ate at Gypsy Den and then had coffee at Starbucks. I usually hate mobile uploads but I thought these were worth blogging about. :)

I'm loving this rain so much I can't even handle it! Just another reminder of how much we miss Washington and our family up there. Stephen and I will hopefully visit in January but whatever God permits!
Just a quick update: I need to get money to send my paper work to State Board so I can take my exam sooner than later and then I can start working....please pray that Stephen can get a job that pays more and I can get a job in a salon that fits me. Everyone and they're mom is struggling with money and or finding jobs but I'm continuing to trust God that He has Stephen and I in His hands. Love you all and thinking of you!

October 2, 2010

graduation highlights

These pictures will probably look the same after awhile but these were the best ones in my opinion. Hope you enjoy them!

My make-up for my graduation.

Done by this beautiful girl! Jessica!

Hair done by this wonderful girl! Carolyn!

My station decorated.

Carolyn and I.

Grandma and I.

Stephen and I.

My favorite auntie: Auntie Lisa and my cousin Samantha.

The person who inspired my hair dressing career: Mommy!!

And the person who paid for it! Daddy!

My sister Tasmin and I.

The last clock in!!!!! I had rose petals thrown at me as I walked down the aisle!

Officially finished with school and ready to celebrate with my man!