I've been overweight since I can remember. I was always the pretty chubby girl in school and always had friends but didn't really see that I was chubby until later on in life. I was probably over 200 pounds in Junior High and I thinned a lot in High School. I look at pictures of myself in early High School and thank God for how far I've come but I also look at pictures of me later in High School and think, "dang! i look really gorgeous!'. "I DO look so much prettier when I'm thinner." These thoughts are motivating yet discouraging. Since I've started beauty school I've put most of the weight back on. ( no P.E, no cute guys or girls to impress and no time ). Another thing is...I want to loose weight again to make me happy and my life easier but at the same time I'm stubborn and don't want to loose because I know the attention I get. Guys liked me more in High School because I was thinner and the stubborn part of me won't loose because I want someone who will love me if I'm big or small. You know? Maybe you guys can share some positive thoughts or give me some motivation to start loosing again! I don't want to waste my roaring 20's soon to come!!! I don't know when I can fit a workout in my schedule and it gets rather difficult to keep going. Any ideas, words? As you will see in some of these photos my body has gone through hell going small and then big, small and then big. I need to do this.
maybe 9th grade